On Learning Kabbalah

jay michaelson
april, 2005



As I teach Kabbalah in synagogues, at universities, and in all sorts of informal settings, curious students often ask how one goes about learning Kabbalah. Issues of secrecy, of authenticity, and of how much you really need to know before learning frequently arise. Here are some of my thoughts on these issues.

Kabbalah means "receiving," and one of the connotations of that word is a teaching received directly from a teacher. Today, we are used to obtaining knowledge by reading books, or websites, and it's rare that we have the time or opportunity to learn from skilled teachers. And even when we do have that chance, it's rarer still to be able to sit one-on-one, or in small groups, with teachers who are truly masters of their disciplines. Yet this is exactly what the Kabbalistic literature demands of us, from its very inception. Centuries before the medieval Kabbalah came into being, the Talmud stated that the greatest mysteries of creation may only be revealed to one student at a time, and then, only if the teacher believes the student to be wise and understanding. In a sense, everything that has been ever written on the Kabbalah either transgresses this teaching or, more likely, gives only hints and allusions to the truth.

Why is this the case? There are several reasons. First, it may be, simply, that the secrets of the Kabbalah were judged to be too destabilizing or too privileged to share with the masses. In this view, Kabbalah is like knowing the secret code words. It's not that the information is impossible to communicate; it's just reserved for the select few, who consequently enjoy a certain privilege (or even power) by possessing it. If only you could find the right teacher, and convince him to let you in on the secret...

There is some historical truth to this "common sense" view. After the Shabbetai Tzvi debacle, Kabbalah was indeed deemed too dangerous for everyone to learn. To a great extent, the doors were locked due to a particular historical circumstance, and due to the anxieties it produced among those in authority. This is where some of the well-known restrictions on Kabbalah study came from -- that you have to be forty years old, married with a family, well-versed in Bible and Talmud, and so on. These rules were put into place due to a historical event, and were couched in the worldview of that historical moment. That is why I do not adhere to them as written -- I am not forty, not married, and I do not have the level of Talmudic knowledge specified in some texts.

I do, however, adhere to these rules in a "translated" way. I think what they are really trying to say is: Be grounded. As I often tell my students, think of yourself as a tree. If you never branch out, never extend yourself, you're barely living. But if you are all branches with no roots, you'll blow over in the wind. Study of Kabbalah, like other contemplative practices, can be de-centering, even frightening. In those moments when the phenomenal world really does blink out of existence, you're left with yourself (at an intermediate stage, anyway; eventually that, too, blinks out) and your fears. This can be a very unsettling, and psychologically dangerous, place. So I think the restrictions on Kabbalah study are actually quite wise. They are there to make sure that only well-grounded people study it -- because only well-grounded people can really enter the Orchard and come back in one piece, like Rabbi Akiva.

So much of the Kabbalah is kept secret because it is meant to be revealed only to those who are capable of receiving it. Share the light with everyone, and some people will shatter, like the vessels in the Lurianic myth. Yet this answer, in my experience, is incomplete; there is also a deeper reason.

The two meanings of Kabbalah -- received tradition and being able to receive -- converge. The doctrines of Kabbalah, and mysticism in general, can be transmitted in many ways, and a skillful teacher will know which of those ways is most appropriate for different students. Since every person is different, this process must happen on a one-on-one basis. Having taught Kabbalah for some time, and having learned it and other mystical traditions for longer, I think there is a lot of truth to this opinion. It also explains some of the huge diversity within both traditional and contemporary Kabbalah. People see these teachings differently, and have different ideas about how to transmit them.

I think the most important aspect of the secret, direct-lineage nature of Kabbalah, though, is that secret wisdom is experiential wisdom. That is why it is not committed to books -- not because it is a proprietary formula, but because it cannot be written at all. For example, take the teaching that everything is God. What does that mean to us? How can we make that truth, if it is true, matter to our lives? It's easy to say, a little harder to soak in, but without direct transmission, impossible to learn fully, deeply, experientially. In Abulafia's books, for instance, the eventual "answers" are less important to us than the process through which the answers are received. They are the evidence of prophecy, but to become a prophet is the true Gift. Again, really, what answers are there? All is God. What we really want to know is how to know that -- how to transcend our situation and open to its reality.

When I was younger, I would imagine that somewhere, there was the book with The Answer. I even found a book that had the answers to famous Zen koans. It explained the sound of one hand clapping. It did not make me enlightened.

We do not need esoteric knowledge, mysterious astrological symbolism, or occult magick to achieve this enlightenment, and therefore it is not the "secret wisdom" of which the Kabbalah speaks. In fact, such secrets may even confuse us into thinking that "if only I understood this or that secret, I would be happy." A true secret is not information. It is the translation of information into experience. Secrets are not concealed for the sake of mystery. They are unwritten because simply there is no alternative.

So, go and read some of the books on the book list provided on this site. Know that they will take you further along the path of learning. But know, too, that they will not take you to experience, and experience is where the truth of this knowledge lies. Map is not territory, and reading a recipe is not the same as eating a meal.

Well, if secret knowledge is experiential knowledge, and therefore the only way to obtain it is in some form of direct transmission from a teacher or experiential practice, what are we to make of the academic study of Kabbalah? Is it, as some contemporary figures say, misguided?

As I have an academic background myself, clearly I don't think academic study is misguided. By applying the tools of critical theory and close reading to the Kabbalah, scholars have vastly enriched our understanding of its substance, its roots and historical development, and its textual makeup. There is no substitute for intellectual rigor, and there are brilliant academics of several generations upon whose shoulders we all sit.

Obviously what an academic approach leaves out are how the teachings of Kabbalah may apply to us today. In a sense, this question is a misleading one for academics, because if we project back our own concerns onto the Kabbalists, we obscure what they are trying to say themselves. To relate hesed and gevurah to a contemporary political situation is precisely, I think, what the Kabbalah wants us to do -- but it is very bad scholarship to do so. The more we blend the Kabbalistic worldviews with our own, the less clearly we can see what the Kabbalah was about for those who created it.

To me, academic and non-academic study of Kabbalah are natural complements of one another (rather like the Kabbalah itself is always seeking balance between two extremes). But I find there are comparatively few teachers who combine actual spiritual practice -- be it meditation, or traditional study, or Jewish ritual observance -- with intellectual rigor and critical openness. Not none -- but few. What I have found, and what you will find, is that to learn Kabbalah is to take on, temporarily, different modes of learning, and do a lot of the integration work yourself. Obviously, in my own classes and in those of some other teachers, attempts are made to bring together academic rigor with spiritual seriousness. But most of the time, it's either one or the other.

For example, learning Kabbalah with contemporary Kabbalists usually means entering a worldview in which Shimon bar Yochai wrote the Zohar -- which scholarship has almost conclusively proven false -- and in which the Torah is a Divine text in a way that no other document is. I do not find it difficult, any longer, to transport myself into that world, work within its assumptions, and then translate what I learn into my own weltanschauung. I can even learn text at the Kabbalah Centre, see through its commercialism and selective emphases of Kabbalistic themes, and understand what it is they're saying. But the beginning student of the Kabbalah should be mindful of these different approaches, and the different assumptions they conceal. Of course, discerning the concealed is one of the main purposes of Kabbalistic study anyway -- so you're well on your way.

Two final questions which are often asked me by my students: language and religion.

Kabbalah depends on the Hebrew language. It is filled with word-play, it is rife with allusions and, as you know if you've read through this site, the Hebrew language is seen as nothing less than the building blocks of creation itself. Likewise, Kabbalah is not -- despite what some people say today -- its own religion, or a system of thought independent of religion. It is a Jewish phenomenon, steeped in the Jewish religious system, and until the last hundred years, its texts were written by and for religious Jews.

So what if you don't know Hebrew, and what if you're not Jewish? Well, I think we should recognize that, without certain choices, our learning will, indeed, be incomplete. If you don't learn Hebrew, if you don't understand the commandments experientially, if you don't master a number of sources -- then, yes, you will not have as deep an understanding of the Zohar as you would have otherwise. But this is true for anything. Without reading Marlowe, you can't appreciate Shakespeare as much. Without knowing Cezanne, you can't fully know Picasso.

But, we make choices and learn anyway. It's important to remember that the choices have been made, and not to make judgments based on partial or incomplete knowledge -- but it's also important not to be stuck because we think we don't have the necessary prerequisites. Learn what you can, if this material interests you. Partial knowledge is better than ignorance, and if you find curiosity in your mind, or heart, or spirit, don't let these barriers get in your way. Certainly, I don't think, in the twenty-first century, that we need to adhere to the specific strictures which would prohibit women, non-Jews, and people under forty from learning, even as I think we should be mindful of their inner purpose. I don't think there is any single prerequisite that every person must have before learning and living Kabbalah. We just need to be aware of our limitations, and aware of what we are receiving -- and then be open.




New publications:

The Virtues of Dialogue
Halacha and Homosexuality
Moment, April, 2005

Discipline
Hedgehogs, foxes, and dilettantes
Zeek, April, 2005

Events:

1. Neurotic Visionaries and Paranoid Jews: An Evening with Zeek Magazine
Thursday, April 7, 7:30-9:00 PM
Makor, 35 West 67th Street, New York, NY
Zeek: A Jewish Journal of Thought and Culture is an eclectic, progressive journal which appears in print twice a year, and online every month (www.zeek.net). Together with original reviews, poetry, and essays on Jewish culture and spirit, every issue of Zeek features innovative and occasionally transgressive visual art from some of today's most compelling Jewish artists. Makor is proud to host two events with Zeek this month. First, at 7:30pm on Thursday, April 7, many of the writers and musicians featured in Zeek will give a one-night performance of their work. Artists scheduled to appear include novelist Aaron Hamburger, poet Hal Sirowitz, rabbi Jill Hammer, storyteller Joshua Axelrad, musician dj Handler, and "punk rock diva" Jennifer Blowdryer. Second, Makor is hosting an exhibition, on view from now until April 7, of artists featured in the magazine. Curated by Bara Sapir, Zeek's Art Editor the exhibition's diverse works address some quintessentially Jewish dichotomies: tradition and transgression; depth and surface; dream and paradox; belonging and diaspora; spirit and eros.
"Neurotic Visionaries and Paranoid Jews" will take place Thursday, April 7, 2005, at 7:30 PM at Makor/Steinhardt Center, 35 West 67th Street, New York, NY. Tickets are $12 in advance, $15 at the door, and are available at www.92y.org.

2. Spirituality and Intimacy Retreat with Ken Page
Garrison Institute, April 8-10
A transformative retreat with a loving community of men. Our shared goal is simply to deepen our capacity to love. We will explore how Spirit is calling us through every kind of intimacy in our lives. And we will learn techniques to help us deepen into our loves. The practices taught in this weekend are gathered from a wide range of ancient and modern approaches, both spiritual and psychological. In addition to meditation and interactive processes led by Ken Page, Mike Moran will lead us in chanting and singing. And Jay Michaelson will lead us in mindful movement practices each morning, combining slow meditation with intentions from the dharma and kabbalah. Men of all religions and spiritual backgrounds are welcome!
Cost: $295 including room & board. http://www.springretreat.net/

3. Kabbalah and the Erotics of the Infinite: The Pincus Lecture at Drew University
Thursday, April 14, 7:30pm
Drew University, Madison, NJ
Jay Michaelson will be giving the 2005 Pincus Lecture at Drew University on the intersection of Kabbalah and eros. Unlike those religious systems which see spirit as separate from the body and sexuality as a necessary evil, the Jewish mystical and esoteric traditions known as Kabbalah hold that the body is a place of sanctity, and sexuality is a key to unlocking the greatest of Divine secrets. And centuries before "The Da Vinci Code," Kabbalah sought the return of the Divine Feminine from Her exile and concealment. In fact, with both human beings and the Godhead possessing male and female energies, the permutations of gender and consciousness challenge simplistic notions of normative sexual expression. Indeed, it is fair to say that the entire world as we experience it, in space and in time, is an expression of the Divine lovemaking. Together we will explore some of these provocative notions, including how "God" and the world are mutually dependent, how the Infinite comes to know Itself through the union of the linear and the cyclical, and how these mysteries are reflected in the diverse experiences of our lives.

4. Jewish Meditation Shabbaton
April 15-16
Yale University, New HavenC CT
Join Jay Michaelson for a shabbat of contemplative practice at Yale University's Joseph Slifka Center. Friday night, Jay will lead a contemplative prayer and meditation service to welcome the Sabbath. And Saturday afternoon, he will facilitate an afternoon of Jewish meditation practice suitable for beginners and experienced practitioners. Learn about Jewish and other meditation practices, and how contemplative practice works within the individual to cultivate wisdom and compassion. This weekend of practice is offered free of charge thanks to the generosity of the Slifka Center.

5. Queer Here Now: The Theory and Practice of Queer Spirituality
Sunday, April 17
Wesleyan University, Middletown, CT
Join us for an evening of practice and discussion on the intersection between queer identity and meditation practice. Queer people, though feared and ostracized by some religious traditions, are a vital part of many religious and contemplative communities. How have queers found a home in Buddhist, Jewish, and other religious worlds without repressing or segmenting their queer selves? Are there unique benefits and challenges to meditating, or practicing religion, as GLBTQ person? Should gender and sexuality "matter" or not -- and what does that say about queerness, identity, theology, and practice? This evening of discussion and practice will engage with some of the fascinating questions raised by queers practicing religion, from issues of community and marginalization to activism and contemplative life; the alchemy of compassion and homophobia to the increasing recovery by queer people of suppressed priestly traditions such as the berdache in some Native American cultures and the links between homoeroticism and the sacred in many shamanic traditions. We will spend time discussing these issues, and also practice together, as queers and allies, over the course of a Sunday evening.

6. Turning It Around and Taking It Back: Religious Activism in a Time of Dissent
Thursday, April 21st, 2005 from 7:00 - 9:00 pm
GLBT Center, 208 West 13th Street
What role will progressive activism play in the national discourse on values? How can liberal people of faith reclaim what it means to be "moral" in America? How can a united progressive movement influence political dialogue today? Join a vibrant group of activists for a panel discussion and community forum at the Center to discuss how our concerns and values fit into the national debate on what drives this country. A panel of activists and leaders of different faiths will offer their vision for religion in America and how it aligns with progressive activism. The panel will be followed by a community forum to discuss how we can work across all boundaries to strengthen activism and confront the religious right. The evening will be moderated by Amy Lavine, co-founder of the Center's Out & Faithful: LGBT People, Religion and Spirituality Series. Confirmed panelists include The Rev. Jimmy Creech, Soulforce's Chairperson of the Board; Debanuj Dasgupta, Board member of the Queer Immigrant Rights Project; and Jay Michaelson, Director of Nehirim: A Spiritual Initiative for GLBT Jews.
Co-sponsored by: Soulforce NYC, The LGBT Center's Out & Faithful Series and Public Policy Department, and Empire State Pride Agenda Foundation's Pride in the Pulpit. For more information please contact Amy Lavine at The LGBT Center.


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